The Universe Gives You What You Need

On Sunday morning, the pups and I started the day with a walk at Cascades Park. RahRah has a hard time controlling herself around other dogs, so to avoid any potential problems, we chose to walk down the dirt path that splits the park in two. It was a gorgeous morning. Cool with the perfect amount of sunshine. The monsters were having a great time running around, sniffing things to their hearts content. I, on the other hand, was stuck inside my head. The events leading up to the weekend were at the top of my mind. My car is a disaster - another repair pending. My mom gave me $ which makes me feel grateful and like a total incompetent adult all at the same time. I cried. a lot. like total meltdown crying. I went grocery shopping for the first time in MONTHS yesterday. I had no food at my house. I am tired of being alone and feeling like I have no one to depend on (which, ironically,is totally my fault because I act like I am fine and I don't need anyone). Anyway, I was on the verge of losing it for the XX time in 48 hours... when this gorgeous monarch butterfly just swoops in front of my face. Reality check. I have been told that butterflies are the spirit of deceased loved ones. It was like my dad swooped out of no where to tell me it's going to be okay {and perhaps to pull it together - lol} I have not seen a monarch for quite awhile and it's timing was perfection. A reminder to stop thinking, to stop the self-loathing conversation in my head and to live in the moment... and of course to think about my dad. Whether or not you believe in the butterfly theory, it was a lovely moment of the universe giving me exactly what I needed.